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I LOVE THE NANYANG MODERN DANCE <3

NYMD SEC FOURS 2006 <3 <3 <3 !


WE'RE ALL GOING TO MISS MISS YEO TOO ):


MY DEAR DEAR SEC TWO JUNIORS! singing that song which got me crying ): still,much love.you guys are wonderful.


thankyou secones for your gifts and "presentation" though you guys barely know us(:


love darling secthrees for the pinkk sashes(: LOVE SEC THREES.for making so much effort.for being our dear sec threes <3


the newly elected nymd president of 2007(: haha she has the looks of a leader right! GO EILEEN!


and ESTELLEEE (olive?) vice president(: GO ESTELLE TOO!


the wonderful motherly nymd president of 2006. WE LOVE YOUUU SO MUCHHH SHARON <3


sec twos sec fours and SIYU(: NYMD IS LOVEE<3

thursday arrived.
i wish to declare my undying love for each and every modern dancer<3 thanks for the fabulous farewell party today.jellyhearts are love<3 just like all of you guys.it feels amazing,to have walked down the path from a sec one dancer to now sec four,and today bidding an official farewell to the modern dance group which we have all come to love.i hate bidding farewells,they always hurt so muchh.and they are always so damn sad.today,i had to bid farewell to so many of the people i love.those people whom i have grown to love so muchh.i do have a wonderful lot of juniors,and im reallyREALLY grateful for that.i want you all to know that every single time you guys screamed "WE LOVE SEC FOURS!" tears came to my eyes and i wanted to tell each and everyone of you that i love you too.

many thankyous and appreciation to the sec threes.for planning such a fantastic farewell party cum ceremony for us.you guys helped to drew a proper closure for our four years here in nymd.thankyou sec threes for making us feel so important today.thanks for making the effort to make the sashes yourselves,getting glitter all over you,bothering to stay back after school to finish them,thinking up of names to "name" each and everyone of us,getting caterer to bring us food,or simply even bothering about this whole thing when you guys could have watched simply said goodbye with a wave of your hands.you guys are the new seniors of the troupe.and you guys are a strong lot.both in dance and in character.let nymd continue to shine,or shine even brighter than before.you guys have one last year in dance,and time really speeds by.so do treasure the time you have here,no matter how short it is.there probably wont be another group like the modern dancers anymore ): eileen estelle liping siyu vinette chit marianne shirley felicia aileen huzhe heiyi jiayee YOU GUYS CAN DO IT.ALL OF YOU.secfours will always be supporting <3

sec twos!i love your song!when you guys started that song my tears started too.we love you,you love us.we are happy modern dance.with a great big hug and a kiss from us,wont you say you love us too!YESS I SO LOVE ALL OF YOU.you guys are always so cheery and smiley and happy and seeing you guys never fails to bring a smile to my face(: as you guys were singing the song,i was wondering to myself."i have such cute and wonderful juniors!how can i EVER bear to leave" and yeah.emotions overwhelmed i didnt know tears can flow that fast.if we dont keep in touch we probably wont ever meet again cos when you guys graduate from nanyang we would have graduated from jc too so we MUST keep in touch alright!special thanks to nicole and cheryl for being the precious ones to pass me the dear heart-shaped box of famous amos cookies and the card signed by all of you guys.you two are going to be two persons most deeply missed by me.thanks for constantly brightening up my life with your sweet smile(cheryl) and your constant and unwavering encouragement for me when i feel down(nicole).although you guys are just sec twos,you guys have done alot.and im very certain the cookies dont come cheap too.thanks for thinking we are all worth everything you have done <3

sec ones!thanks for even bothering to give us a farewell gift and getting the whole group together to say farewell sec fours when you guys barely know us.dont think any of you will actually read this,but just in case there are,i just wanted to say.you guys are now part of nymd.let it shine.feel very proud to be a nanyang modern dancer,just like your seniors.jiayou!

today i ate alot and i cried alot ): what a combination.and doing YMCA and fearlessly feminine and tonight and toxic today felt like the old times.it felt so,comforting,so familiar.especially tonight,which the music simply reminds me of dance camp 04.when we were in sec two.its amazing how time flies.

forever and ever a part of nymd.

i want to go back to dance!i want to see the dancers and the juniors.i have been cheating myself.i told myself we will never need to leave nymd.we will never have to.but we just did.i wonder how we are all going to survive the days without dance.when whenever there are breaks after major performances or shows,we'll all groan and complain and demand the next dance practice to come sooner sooner.and now there are not going to be dance for us anymore?i cant imagine life without nanyang modern dance.without my dear dancemates.without my wonderful juniors.ahhhh ): HOWW.

nicole told me to stop being sad by looking forward to tmr.but howww.there's no dance tmr ): life wont feel complete without dance and the dancers.

oh my. i love all of you more than i myself can possibly imagine.

nymd is lovee;

sharon's sms today. 22th Aug 2006 Tuesday 6.42pm:
"We will need to do one more cip. If not possible on 9th sept, we may have to do it after exams. After this thur, sec 4s officially retire."

this particular thursday is arriving sooner than i ever imagined.

nanyang modern dance;

JIAYING & SHIHUI MY COUSIN :D

found this photo out from goodness knows where(: i look so different! tell me i dont look weird. probably like 14 years ago, i dontknow how old i was in that photo though. hahah rather memorable still. shall dig out my baby photos when i have the time(: mm, sometimes there are just so many things i want to remember. i dont want to leave people and i dont want people to leave. ):

i scraped my kneeS at soccer today when i haven even touched the ball at all. so clumsy! ): it hurts alright. but i shall be strong. anyway, with everything around me, i guess i have to.

everytime disturb me;

i just finished watching shes the man and duke (channing tatum, if im not wrong) is so so damn sweeet aww.especially near the ending aw,now i can understand what shuhui is swooning about(:

):

doing too much;

i slept 8 hours in 3 days.and im still alive.kudos to me(:

anyway im currently at chapter 11 of shes the man!dear shuhui willingly lent me her disc (she swoons over the hot guys in there) and i was watching it when what i should be doing is chinese compre.i've been rushing so much work recently.rush at home till ungodly hours into the night and rushing at school without paying attention to the lessons.and 90% of them are all chinese.still got another chinese compre to complete.i totally cant stand chinese now,have been typing it for goodness knows how many days and nights man.okay now my overdue homework: ames/phys assignment p/physics toy/study phys quiz tmr/chinese compre.and im so going to sleep now hahha guess will be rushing again tmr and i seriously should start revising for the exams soon.ciaooo!

by the way next thursday is handover day for the modern dancers!im so going to miss the dancers!never thot it would be my turn to leave so fast.time passes so fast people come and go at extreme speeds btw corinna will be leaving for USA to study two weeks from now and she wont be coming back to singapore ever except on trips/visits.corinna,my classmate for four straight years!i cried todayjust couldnt bring myself to accept all these changes so fast so fast.i never thought such things that i usually see in shows and drama serials will actually happen to me.and so soon.and very soon more people are all going to leave for other countries to study or whatsoever and people walk on to their separate paths in life.juniors reading this,learn to treasure the present before the time comes for you guys to need to adapt to all these horrible changes in your life.its so traumatising.

the hidden hurt in the heart;

happy 89th birthday nanyang! anyway;

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

hahhahahha i thought that the infected toenail part was SO amusing.who dies of an INFECTED TOENAIL--;; AT MIDNIGHT somemore.HAHAHA btw whos the Darth Vader!haha maybe i'll miss you too!(:

it's tough learning how to let go.

will you still love me in the morning?
forever and ever, babe.

the magic is in you;

this is cool.jiayi the tiger has a blog.and only i know about it.so stressed.xanga rocks btw.hahha.anyway today's cross country was.mmmmm.i dont like turf city haha but oh well and im very thankful to dear wanteng <333 who ran with me throughout that 2.9 km,who kept me company and walk with me and always asking if im okay or we can stop.all these when she could have just sprinted the 2.9 km or something cos shes an expert when it comes to running.haha thanks wanteng ms nice legs.haha <3 WANTENG!

afterr x country went marina square for lunch,ended up there cos we couldnt decide where to go since everyone's going coro kap orchard blah!anyway!wanteng went back to malaysia,only coming back on thurs.okay fine its not a super long time but yeah.now whenever i get all emo and i want to die no one will be there to talk to me anymore ): ahh.okay anyway.went orchard with jiayuan and meisiew(: bought helen's birthday present!i feel like im helen's manager or something.till today there are already three people (note:guys) who smsed/callled me to ask me what to buy for helen.helen you're one lucky girl babe <3

i seriously think there is something wrong with me.serious mood swingggs.im getting so emo ahhh ): sometimes i really hate myself why cant i be more independent.i really dont understand why does what you say always matter so much.things have changed much since.i tried not to care.i failed.maybe only jiayi knows what im talking about,and yeah jiayi!i feel so loserrrr ): okay this paragraph totally sounds wrong.but.whatever.

yknow nowadays if people tell me no i dont think she'll do that cos i've known her for years and she isnt that kind who will.my instant reply would be you know these days you cant really trust people anymore.this is totally random and out of point.but yeah,its incredible.people.really.haha im not trying to disillusion myself and say its all not true but im accepting the fact that when we grow things and people get complicated and such stuff are part and parcel of life.but still sometimes i cant help but stare and be fascinated.

anyway people im sorry if i dont look or talk like myself sometimes.i didnt mean it and yeah,its all that emoshit getting to me.and all the work and sias piling up cos i simply dont feel like doing them and when next week comes i'll probably just die.and the way people can change.but dont think i actually do not look or talk like myself cos i can always hide such stuff (i think).i love sad songs.bytheway,anyone got the song purest of pain by son by four?its such a wonderful song.i've been practically living and breathing it for the past few days.

Purest Of Pain
-Son by Four

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live with out you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
but there's something baby that you need to know
that deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.

Baby, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
Living without you, my world becomes so empty
my day's are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain.

I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
that it didn't hurt me when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.

Baby, give me back...


here's the link to the song.just click on it and enjoy.(if you're feeling sad just like me):

purest of pain <3

baby you're the one i need tonight;

): ): ):
whats happening.can someone be the light.you know how it feels when nobody seems to care?
sigh/.

and not even you;